(and why I created this space)
I am Jelena and I was born and raised in beautiful Croatia. As I did all my schooling in Italian ever since kindergarten, I ended up studying and living in Italy for many years. Italy was the place where I spread my wings, discovered my adult self, created friendships that would last a lifetime and eventually met the man I was meant to marry. It was the usual story, girl meets boy, boy steals her heart and she decides she'll follow him to the end of the word and eventually ends up living on a little island in the Mediterranean called Malta. The place I learnt to call home. Even though I still find ironic the fact that I live on an island while being terrified of flying. The things ones does for love...
Despite the fact that I have a degree in psychology and I am obviously passionate about this field, my greatest passion in life is art and today my job is being the proud owner of an online shop called Paint my Dream. I create all sorts of decorations with clay and paint, and I consider myself being amongst the few lucky ones that not only don't hate Mondays, but also don't mind working 7 days per week. Art, besides becoming my full time job, plays also a big role in my fight with Emetophobia. It helps me to relax, to focus on the present moment and to distract myself from the overbearing thoughts that most of the time weigh on my mind. Art is my job but also my shelter, a place where I can create the world as I imagine it.
I have decided to create this website as I have been, and still am, deeply affected by Emetophobia. Even though I struggled with it for the best part of my life only, in the recent years I actually discovered this condition and found out what I was actually suffering from, to the contrary of the myriad of misleading diagnoses I was assigned since my teenage years. Despite my background in psychology, a countless number of therapies and therapists, despite me being an avid reader and relentless researcher only a couple of years ago did I read for the first time the name Emetophobia and I finally realised I was not the world's odd one out. I figured if this condition had a name, it had a set to symptoms which I unfortunately knew all too well, then there had to be a known treatment for it. As any other thing related to this condition, finding the right treatment proved to be very challenging as it wasn't available locally, or even in a close proximity. However, finally, after being treated for things I didn't suffer from for most of my life, at the moment I am being treated for the one condition I am afflicted by and I can finally say I'm on my way to recovery.
All this has prompted me to create a website which is meant to be a collection of useful information for other people who might be fighting the same battles and their loved ones, besides being an inspirational space where I'll be sharing my own journey and all the little and big things that have helped me along the way. I always felt I needed to find a purpose to this never-ending battle of mine because then maybe I could find some peace and accept life as it is. If my experience with this heavy life companion could be useful to even one person then maybe it would all have been worthwhile.
My life is still extremely hard because of this condition so I am not here to teach you anything; I'm simply here to share the information I wish I had a long time ago and to share the ups and downs of my own rocky path. I will be sharing my own journey with Emetophobia in the Blog section. My only hope for this website is to give a little light to the darkness that Emetophobia can bring to one's life.
To read about my personal journey with Emetophobia please click on the the button below!
"You don't have to have it all figured out to move forward...just take the next step."
Welcome to EmetophobiaNoMore!
This space is meant to give you a variety of information about Emetophobia, or SPOV (Specific Fear Of Vomiting), and also a peek into my own journey alongside this uncomfortable travel companion.
As a person who struggled with this condition for the best part of my life, I've spent most of this time being completely lost as there were so few resources that could have help me understand this under-researched and so rarely mentioned condition that can actually be truly detrimental to one's life if not treated properly. I will also be writing about anxiety, depression and panic attacks, which seem to be part of the package deal that comes with Emetophobia.
If you are the one who's affected by this condition or you're a caring partner, friend or family member who's trying to help your loved one, you are already aware that this condition is very difficult to live with, and can sometimes be nearly unbearable. Therefore, besides talking about Emetophobia I'll be also sharing a lot of different and fun ways that have helped me reduce my anxiety, fear and stress levels. In my blog I'll be writing about the ways that art, music, meditation, pets and even cooking have been helpful in my journey.
My only scope is to share with you all the information I wish I had available a long time ago when I was feeling lost and plainly weird. Most of all, I want to make you feel that you're not alone, and that there is hope!
"DON'T BELIEVE EVERYTHING YOU THINK!!!"
"Be gentle with yourself, you're doing the best you can"
"It's ok if all you did today was survive"
"Feelings are NOT facts!"
"What consumes your mind controls your life"
...AND DON'T FORGET, YOU'RE STILL HERE, STILL LIVING DESPITE THE FEAR